a quick hello to myself for coming back to update a little from here and there. just came back from visiting my grandma and wore my very first 21st birthday present from her! happy chinese new year to all
mad love this picture of me and her! <3
i was wearing this red cheongsam and everyone in the family thinks i look like waitress in the restaurant we frequent every chinese new year. i playfully replied, got see waitress so pretty one meh? (in hokkien some more) TROLL !
been having crabs for 3 weeks and 3 days and today the last crab standing, Berry is dead too. i didn’t cry yet but it literally adds more sadness to my already super emotional chinese new year. i love tiny and weird things like these, crabs and fishes (there are people who enjoy these things like me too) and it was an incredible experience to rare crabs for awhile and it made me really happy and excited. but i have also been living in fear for the past 3 weeks as every single day i came home from work, i’d check if my crabs are still alive… and also i must take really negative comments from almost everyone… and also once in every few days checkered shirt brothers text to check if they are alive too
sometimes i couldn’t remember how easy he is able to change all the gloomy days away but most of the times i forgot to tell him that he has given me the most heartbreaks of all.
and right now, I’m really craving for a good bowl of seafood risotto
I had an amazing Christmas this year! I couldn’t believed it but i had presents after 20 years of living. nothing is IMPOSIBRU! The best of all is that small packet of cookies which is still sitting in my room. Too expensive to put them into my mouth. Sorry for the lack of updates but i have been really good and happy living my life #likeaboss ever since exam finished last month. I don’t even have enough time for my family and myself. Been entertaining booze and friends a lot! Sorry to break the happiness but i will be starting my internship next week! Boohoo, time for some work instead of lazing around. 3 days before a new year again but this time around i find myself feeling so excited for more good years to come. To be frank, 2011 is one of the best years i ever had. So much of excitement, interesting and fun people along the way, serious business, shopping maximum, eat good food maximum, living life like a boss, partied like crazy and most of all attending church and knowing all the fun people
It wasn’t a smooth sailing ride all these while and i had my fair share of ups and downs but every other time i always remind myself that after every thunderstorm comes the rainbow. Just the other day, i was catching up with a few close friends and i feel like i cannot relate to that kind of pain and hurtful memories they are currently having anymore. I don’t even know if it is still right to say this but as much as it has hurt me, it never really did for now. As much as i’ve said how much pain i’ve gone through i could no longer relate to that kind of pain and sadness. It has slowly became a burden in life where you know you can never erase it from you but you know it is not gonna affect you, your life and your life-changing decisions anymore. This is what it has all became after the pain.
Sometimes life does makes me feel like I’m out of place, makes me feel like i could handle no more but i always believe there is a solution to all problems. and i must really apologize for i have turned my back to quite a number of my friends (mostly college friends) due to some love life crisis before this but I’m really all good now! Im sorry if this affects you and your life and also for being missing on social networks for a bit but Im back on track now Not active but you’d still see my name there if this makes all of you feel better My final year next year, the beginning of all horror, YEAR THREE! I really want to focus on my studies next year and do much more better than now. Its been feeling really strange, it feels like i only started monash last month but in the blink of both eyes, I’m in year 3 next semester and the one and only person i started monash with has left long time ago. Sometimes when you get all things in life planned out they will fail you sooner or later. Life never lets you plan, they plan and you follow. God plans, you follow
Couldn’t decide if i should get a 4S. I am not a gadget geek but iPhone has totally bring it to the next level. I really want an iPhone 4S white. Anyway, too lazy to put the pictures in chronological order but they mean the world to me and today i’d like to introduce them to you
its been a really good year and from here i hope that year 2012 will only gets better. ALL GLORY TO GOD ! and a big thank you to everyone who stood by me <3 you guys have been nothing but amazing
HAPPY NEW YEAR! To all, never be afraid to take chances in life. You will never know where it will leads you to; somewhere further and better. Never lose faith in life, never lose faith in God. We should all start living by a little of faith in life. Even with the faith of a mustard seed, the world gets better Let the old ones go, let the past be buried away and live present.
I will continue to walk a thousand steps from here…
Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed that I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
So glad to finally have time for myself tonight. I opted for a quiet night this saturday instead of hanging out and coming back at the wee hours. I have been doing that a lot ever since the last paper few weeks ago. The most crazy thing is drinking for 5 consecutive days *pukes* Tonight, i seriously enjoy my own quiet time This is absolutely the ‘yay’ me moment. Heeeeee
I just flipped through my favorite magazines and just came back from a shopping trip with mama. Had good food today too – Levain for brunch and seafood for dinner Life is bliss am in a very cheery mood and also loving the Christmas atmosphere everywhere!
For some reason, i have been very miserable at myself. I don’t like myself now who is currently at home, doing nothing for no one. Wake up, eat, sleep, sleep, eat and wake up. I wanted to bake but my mum told me not to dirty the kitchen. Le sigh. I’m looking for a part time job tho, do tell me if you know any! I feel like i have lost my passion in doing things. It feels like nothing ignites the fire in me anymore. So, help bring out the little ball of excitement in me! I’m going for yoga lessons too. Yes, congratulations to myself because i’ve finally succumb to peer pressure and am gonna do something about my weight. YAY ME!
such a vain picture of me, i had bunny ears previously and koala bear now! My friends hated them so much! What say you?
Have a good week lovelies xx
p/s – I think I’m not as cheerful as before. it suddenly just came to me that my results is out on monday. EMO. so afraid that i will fail any subjects and that would totally devastate me is this even new? i’ve been feeling the same for FOUR FREAKING SEMESTERS!
is this even new? i’ve been feeling the same for FOUR FREAKING SEMESTERS!
