we never learned
I’m supposed to go for the consultation today. That’s what I planned last night. Bt I’m Nw in the library, curling up on the table, blogging.
Out of a sudden I just don’t want to go. Or maybe because I think that its a shame to ask questions personally to the lecturer. Its so shameful bt on the other hand, it represents hardworking which I’m not. Hmmm, coming to think of it we are all brought up in this way. Nt all bt I believe most of us. We are all brought up in a way to just nod ur head, not question that much and just learn it all by ourselves. even if we don’t get it, we will at least pretend like we know it all in front of all others.
it definitely is not a healthy attitude bt most of the asians have it. It must have been the same growing up process here or maybe its inherited in the genes.
Hmmmmmm, I decided to just go home and wrap myself in my colourful stripes blanket. The consultation for chemistry planned earlier? Ahhhh, forget it. I will figure them out later or even if I don’t, only sace examiners will know. Typical asian attitude.
final paper to go 
Midway through exams.
It is raining heavily outside. I’m supposed to fit in more knowledge into my brain so that I’m able to do better this time. Somehow, Im just being very lazy.
2 down, 3 to go I may say… Bt somehow there’s this something that had been bothering me ever since sunday. I tried very hard to believe that I was being unconscious on sunday night. I was looking all over my room for something, something that might or might not inspired me to do better in exams.
But after searching here and there, I know that something is never in my room anymore. It gets me to wonder, to wonder very far away from here. No one else but its him that I was thinking about. I’m sorry, I’m still thinking about him now. If not, why would I even bother blogging?
I believe I was looking for something that still belongs to us. Be it big or small, as long as its about us, as long as it still reminds me of you. Somehow, it couldn’t be found. I remembered I threw everything away unwillingly. The soft toys, the pictures, the cards and small notes, and almost every single thing except for that bear flower which is still comfortably sitting in my wardrobe. I once was very angry at both of us that I gathered all my courage to throw them away. I thought without all these things, I’m able to live happily. Somehow, I realised I was wrong. I never get to forget any of these memories as its still so fresh in my mind. It feels like yesterday. Just yesterday.
I was frustrated, angry and upset a little.
Frustrated for he never seem to care anymore, angry at myself for being so weak and upset for we never managed to hold on. Ahhhh, it feels better after telling all out. I was hurt deeply that till now I can still remember everything so clearly. these are just some unhappy moments in the past relationship. No worries, I’m happy now. Very happy. I’m in a relationship, a happy relationship I would say. I seldom find myself so happy ever since.
Its just that at times I still wish that you would be here.
Gives you hell
*pops a bottle of champagne*
That abusive matriculation of mine which i had been complaining and bitching a lot for the past 8 months finally ended. Im happy that the all stressful days are gone. But on the other hand, sam and taylors gave me the best experience in life. I love my life now and i don’t think i will want to make any changes to it. Gah, no time for that just yet. No time for emotional post.
Someone did something really nice and sweet for me. He actually did something based on my favourite book, ps. iloveyou. Its really sweet. What is it you may ask? Thats for me to know and for you to find out =) Im happy that besides great education, taylors gave me a bunch of wonderful friends and someone seriously special. Gah, my wtf friend is gonna comment on this. Yes? No? wtf !
Finals in a week time. I just hope that i will do well. I think i should stop thinking about the outcomes which really scares me and boosts down my confidence level. I will just do my part and leave the rest to the God. Goodluck to everyone who will be doing SACE Finals as well !
lots of love.
09 Miss Msia.
Cobra starship ?
Body lotion ?
Ugly picture of everyone ?
Hmmmm. What does all these remind you guys?
Goh Wen Zhee ?
Mosquito ?
or
or
or
MISS MALAYSIA ?
It was a not properly planned birthday but it turned out to be the best celebration among all. Now i truly understand what it means by good things happened when you least expect it.
I promised to write about the overrated bday dinner. It all started with this really bored English movie. The storyline wasn’t interesting okay? I don’t think that the chronology part is confusing like some of you do. Then we went around wanting to get her the perfect gift. We were hoping that she likes that pair of Fossil shades but unfortunately she didn’t. In the end, we settled down for something simple and useful.
Dinner was hilarious. After fin all the delicious food, we arranged for the cake session. One of the workers there came out from nowhere with the bday cake and shouted.. MISS MALAYSIA !!! Everyone in that area couldn’t help but to laugh so hard. It was totally a surprise to all of us. I swear we didn’t arrange it. The best part is they cannot stop repeating the title – MISS MALAYSIA !!! Bubba can really sing good bday song. Credits to them. They actually gave mos a chance that she had been opting for a very long time - that is to do shake it in front of everyone. Haih. But that day she is very shy. She only shake it with 30% of her ability. Trust me, she can do so much better than that. I cannot actually express everything on that day because there were too many interruptions in between that i forgot some of them.
If you want your birthday cake, let me see your booty shake =)
Moving on. So, you were asking what can an 18-year-old teen do right?
Let me suggest you a few…
1. Can club legally
2. Can drive to coll (minus the switching off the light’s part) =p
3. Do something like The Ugly Truth !
There were good food from Bubba.
Great companions…
What other things can you ask for ?
A new picture of us =)
Happy Bday miss =)
Hope you had a good one =)
