An ordinary life is a crime.

I know it took me quite a long time to update another post. Like always, im so busy with assignments, homeworks and tests. I don’t think i have a better reason other than this. Anyhow, life goes on in the way like God had planned it earlier.

Due to all the stressful college works, i didn’t have time to go hoo-ha over my 18th birthday. No doubt, i had a great one. I couldn’t ask for more, i supposed. But still no, im not going to elaborate on my birthday celebrations yet. I think i need more time to write a proper birthday post for myself. Anyway, a picture of me being blissful to see the gift i got earlier.

Sem 2 had been busy and am still very busy. =(

The worst part is desmond will be leaving. Yes, leaving this dumb intake of sam because he actually got JPA scholarship. Damn. At times, i think things happened when you least expect it to be. It is really disheartening for us having to deal with the fact that he’s leaving. I think that this is something worse than the one i had in high school. We were just too close. But heh, people always leave. I think i shouldn’t be surprised by it. Anyway, we will be having a farewell party this friday. I think when desmond actually reads this, he is no longer found in our favourite, ss15. Maybe monash or ucsi.

and this song is our favourite =)

I received an email earlier. It is about this open space parking, globalnet opposite inti coll lab in subang. It says that there is this indon who is riding on a bike with plate number wsh 8145 is trying to commit crime. So, any of you who happened to be in subang, be careful =) Anyway, i always park there whenever im late for class. I think i better stop doing so.

im leading a happy life. i don’t think i owe anyone an explanation on this =) i just am happy =)

im 18 !

and i guess this birthday ends perfectly.

*big smile*

happy 18th birthday to karying.  

I have always been someone who loves sleeping so much. I think this is the only hobby i had picked up and never want to thow it away. Somehow, at times i find it so difficult to fall asleep. Yesterday was one of those nights where i stared and just stared blankly at the ceiling. Yes, i had been thinking a lot about life, updates, all the what if(s) issues and birthday, this 18th birthday of mine which will be here next thursday. This is the time where people will crowd around me to sing the bday song, this song which everyone is capable to sing so loudly. This will be the time to receive countless text messages and calls from almost everyone including loved ones, friends and random people in life. This reminds me that im not forgotten.

Believe it or not, i have always wanted an extraordinary birthday with someone who is extraordinary to me. I have always wanted to be treated as a princess on my birthday itself. I wanted something like candlelight dinner, blowing cakes at the peak of the hill, clowns entertaining me with different shapes of balloons, countless beautiful and thoughtful gifts and so many more. Many years back, something hit me real hard, in fact so damn hard. I personally think that it changed me 360 degrees. My birthday wishes were changed into something so cheesy. I remembered I used to sulk like crazy, shed so many buckets of tears and just so many things. However, now im pretty sure that everything is over. In fact, nothing were left. I promised this is the last time im talking about this. I finally realised there’s nothing so proud about it. I used to search and search for someone who is perfect but not that perfect to replace this emptiness i had been feeling. To replace this sms partner, to replace this punching bag, to replace this someone who will just give kisses and hugs randomly, to replace this someone whom will always offer to pay for bills, to replace this person whom used to drool with me over David Beckham and Jay Chou.

In life, I used to be someone whom had been dieing to upload hotties pictures on facebook, i used to be someone whom had always been telling the whole world that i had moved on so quickly with another better guy. But as time passed, i realised none of this is important. Love is not about searching all your life time for the perfect man. Love is one miracle thing that comes naturally, i supposed. This year’s birthday wish will not be about hunting in town for this perfect man. I believe God will send me this angel when he thinks I’ m ready for it.

This birthday is going to be like any other birthdays, there won’t be any candlelight dinner, won’t be blowing out the candles at the peak of the mountain, won’t be having this and that. In fact, im still spending it alone. Not just this 18th birthday but also birthdays, christmas, new year’s eve, valentine’s day(s),cny and many upcoming happenings till the right time is here.

this morning, one of my family member received this blackmail call which says

your life only worth RM30,000. you won’t be able to live till next wed, i will call you again on thursday.

it leave my family members with all the possible possibilities and worries.

is the society really becoming this this this violent ?

if  you actually have this 30k, who will be the one you wanna shoot ?

At this time right now, i should be sleeping soundly on my bed with all those usual soft toys with me. Yes, i still sleep with soft toys even when i will be turning 18 this month. Im turning 18 this month, it certainly is a big number to me. Oh well, its like im no longer being called a high school girl but instead college girl.

I no longer have to wear uniform, cut my nails, tie my hair, remove my nail lacquer, listen to the teachers nagging, sing the National Anthem during assembly, sing the school’s song, wear and wash my white school shoes and most of all study for spm. It certainly did feels so good at first having all these freedom which I never had ever since i started pre-school many years back. It certainly did feels so good having to know that you no longer have to go for tuition and just get all the straight As you have wanted in spm. I admit i went to countless tuitions last year, and i didn’t turned out to have a string of As. In fact, the spm slip is a bit ugly with different grades printed on it but who actually cares about the number of As you got in spm. The first thing i ever learned in college is to start things fresh, start your college with a clean academic state. So, dont need to study for spm ! Just play !

But to be called a college girl like now, to have all the freedom i am having now, i have to sacrifice as well. To be precise, i have to sacrifice more compared to last year. Im actually in the midst of doing two assignments. One is esl and the other is chemistry. To be frank, i had a hard time looking for chem sources. I think i had the toughest title among all – alum in water treatment. It might sounds easy, this was my first impression towards it but the fact is it isn’t. I find it so tough to get sources from the library and even the net. It’d stressed me out when the due date is drawing closer and closer but giving up is definitely the last number on my list. At least, i found 2 sources now and im still working hard on the other two. Esl is always on the pending list. Please remind me to finish up my assignments before allowing me to hit the mall/cinema for 17 Again !

Wenzhee is a good example. We were on facebook like always.

me : play play play barn buddy !  

wenzhee : wah, still play? no need to do assignments meh?

Haih. I want to play barn buddy awhile also cannot but must do assignments. This is because ALL MY COLLMATES are doing them now.

I really have to sacrifice a lot of things especially sleeping time to be able to do this jump in genting. Because all these memories are my only entertainment in the middle of the night.

Till then.