a quick hello to myself for coming back to update a little from here and there. just came back from visiting my grandma and wore my very first 21st birthday present from her! happy chinese new year to all 
mad love this picture of me and her! <3
i was wearing this red cheongsam and everyone in the family thinks i look like waitress in the restaurant we frequent every chinese new year. i playfully replied, got see waitress so pretty one meh? (in hokkien some more) TROLL !
been having crabs for 3 weeks and 3 days and today the last crab standing, Berry is dead too. i didn’t cry yet but it literally adds more sadness to my already super emotional chinese new year. i love tiny and weird things like these, crabs and fishes (there are people who enjoy these things like me too) and it was an incredible experience to rare crabs for awhile and it made me really happy and excited. but i have also been living in fear for the past 3 weeks as every single day i came home from work, i’d check if my crabs are still alive… and also i must take really negative comments from almost everyone… and also once in every few days checkered shirt brothers text to check if they are alive too
sometimes i couldn’t remember how easy he is able to change all the gloomy days away but most of the times i forgot to tell him that he has given me the most heartbreaks of all.
and right now, I’m really craving for a good bowl of seafood risotto
